Where Did My Importance Go?

Anyone that has experienced early recovery from alcoholism and/or drug addiction knows that many changes take place during the first twelve months of sobriety and working a recovery program.  From a clinical perspective, the changes taking place involve four key areas of the disease:

The topic of this article refers to the gradual recognition that self-importance is significantly changed once one begins the journey into recovery.


The ego of an individual with an active addiction is exaggerated.  The exaggeration comes from a learned behavior that is directly associated to the addicted individual’s psychological need to suppress chronic and unmanageable stress combined with physiological cravings for addictive substances.  In a relatively short period of time, the addict quickly realizes that he/she must act independently of others in order to secure survival in their lifestyle.  The addict realizes that he/she is the most important person in their world, and that he/she is the only person that matters to the people around them.  The addict expects all those around them to indulge their every need or the addict will cut them off.  This distorted way of thinking causes a cycle of narcissistic behaviors reinforced by the drug and alcohol use.

In recovery, the individual learns that it is an absolute necessity to rely on other people for assistance in arresting the disease of addiction.  At first, asking for and accepting appropriate help is nearly impossible for the individual in early recovery.  Over time, the individual begins to realize that he/she is not the only person they can rely upon, and a sense of humility begins to appear.  With a newly found humble approach to surviving in a lifestyle of recovery, the recovering person is able to shift their understanding to allow for the possibility that they are not the important people they once thought they were.  This form of humility is critical to their recovery effort.  However, this type of humility does not come easily.

As mentioned earlier, the addict who is active in their addiction has created a habitual thought process that they are the most important person in their own lives and in everyone else’s lives as well.  With recovery comes the realization that they must change their thinking.  When the individual  begins to understand that they are not the most important person in everyone else’s lives, they must deal with the loss of that status.  People in early recovery must go through a grieving process, not only for the drugs and alcohol that they have lost, but also for the image of themselves as an important person.  Suddenly the recovering person feels as if they are of no consequence, have no purpose, and are lost as a human being.

There is one very important distinction for the person in early recovery to make:  he/she must realize that they remain important, and that their importance has shifted from the external to the internal.  The recovering person must create an understanding that they remain the most important person around: to themselves.  Without themselves, the recovering person will not be able to maintain sobriety, do the work necessary to cope with life’s stresses, build relationships with others that will support them in recovery, understand that there is much more to their universe than they have ever perceived, and make the necessary prudent choices to live a fulfilling lifestyle of long-term recovery.

The importance that a recovering person has is infinite when it comes to self-care, self-efficacy and self-awareness.  Without the self, the recovering person would not be able to achieve long-term recovery.  Furthermore, in taking care of himself/herself, the recovering person is more likely to have others in their lives that choose to bond with and love them.  Because personal behaviors begin with the individual, there can be no more important person to the recovering person than himself/herself.

There is another realization that comes from an understanding that one’s sense of importance to the external world is greatly diminished:  a concept of a higher power is created.  Because the recovering person has admitted that they are not the most important thing in other people’s lives, they must come to terms with how they fit into their life as a whole.  Questions arise such as, what is my purpose, how can I contribute to life, and is there a place for me in this world?  These questions are most effectively answered with a realization that there is a higher power than the individual in recovery.  Once the development of a higher power concept is in place, then the recovering person can be a part of something bigger.  He/she can be comfortable having a role to play within the grand scheme of things.  No longer does the recovering person need to feel as if they are responsible for everything, and they are able to turn things over to the care of their higher power.

Self-importance never goes away, it merely changes with the phase of life one is in.  If it is possible to be all-important and insignificant at the same time; that may be how many in recovery rightly feel about themselves.


By Andrew Martin, MBA, LAADC, SAP,CA-CCS